#JusJoJan 2019 ~January 1 – Write about 2018, your plans for 2019, or anything you’d like
Happy New Year to all my blogging friends!
Looking back, I did have a tough year. My depression dominated mostly the entire year and at some point, it cripples in achieving what I desire.
In 2018, my in-laws visit for the summer, I went to South Dakota, Wyoming, Arizona, my youngest son married in July, my daughter also married in Nov, I read and reviews more books than other years check my Goodreads challenge, I lost 20 pounds, I wrote almost every day, I began going to church- not every week but at least more frequent. So, what I’m missing? Why this mental illness wants to take over and ruins my life?
My husband asked me last night what I want on this New Year. I didn’t need to think too much. I want to be happy and this inside pain gone forever. How I make myself to be happy? I’ve been blessed with a wonderful husband, three children, and four grandkids. I’m blessed for having my family and a job I love, and for everything I own. What I don’t understand it’s this feeling that I’m missing something, and I feel lonely.
My only resolution or goal for 2019 will be taking care of this depression. I can’t continue living like nothing it’s happening. I’m tired of appearing that I’m happy and hiding my depression from everyone. I will concentrate on taking care of myself, so I can enjoy my life with my love ones.