#JusJoJan ~ Happy New Year!

#JusJoJan 2019 ~January 1 – Write about 2018, your plans for 2019, or anything you’d like

Happy New Year to all my blogging friends!

Looking back, I did have a tough year. My depression dominated mostly the entire year and at some point, it cripples in achieving what I desire.

In 2018, my in-laws visit for the summer, I went to South Dakota, Wyoming, Arizona, my youngest son married in July, my daughter also married in Nov, I read and reviews more books than other years check my Goodreads challenge, I lost 20 pounds, I wrote almost every day, I began going to church- not every week but at least more frequent. So, what I’m missing? Why this mental illness wants to take over and ruins my life?

My husband asked me last night what I want on this New Year. I didn’t need to think too much. I want to be happy and this inside pain gone forever. How I make myself to be happy? I’ve been blessed with a wonderful husband, three children, and four grandkids. I’m blessed for having my family and a job I love, and for everything I own. What I don’t understand it’s this feeling that I’m missing something, and I feel lonely.

My only resolution or goal for 2019 will be taking care of this depression. I can’t continue living like nothing it’s happening. I’m tired of appearing that I’m happy and hiding my depression from everyone. I will concentrate on taking care of myself, so I can enjoy my life with my love ones.

#JusJoJan 2019

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10 responses to “#JusJoJan ~ Happy New Year!

  1. Wishing you a deeply peaceful New year.

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  2. Your story sounds remarkably like mine. I too have a blessed life, but walk in depression, so this year I hope to learn to be kind and compassionate with myself. To learn the tools that will help me conquer those dark times and breathe in the light. You are an inspiration.

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    • I’m trying to stay focus and not let small things bothered me. Also, I’m realizing when I’m depressed I gets messy all over the place and can’t concentrate. I’m trying to be in peace with myself but it’s hard.

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  3. All the very best for the new year, Margret. 🙂

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  4. You have a good resolution that will make not only yourself happier but also those around you. May your year be filled with love and contentment.

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  5. Depression is a very real battle. I will make sure extra prayers of comfort and peace surround you. Hopes for a positive year.

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