Spring break!

Finally, I’m on spring break. I have no plans to visit the girls in Arizona at this time. I’m planning a trip for the summer and I need to save money.

Instead, I’m cleaning my closet, getting rid of clothes I don’t be using. I’m changing curtains and bedding with more spring colors. Changing the vases around the house for new flowers I got at Michaels. The feeling of spring is lifting my soul that’s for sure.

Even though it’s cold outside and there is no green grass yet the sun is coming out meaning soon it will be spring. This winter has been a long one with lots of snow and strong winds. It’s time for a transition from cold to warm weather. I need to get fresh air.

I’m feeling much better with the increase in the medication. I still have some days where the depression reminds me, I still have work to do. I need to be confident and get a counselor.                                                         

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feeling blue

After the holidays, I have been depressed and that’s the reason I’m not writing frequently on my blog. I feel my brain is full of wrong ideas and disconnected.

I have tried to read but I’m dragging the pages, so I have put the book away. I’m moody, sad, and tired all the time. My brain feels foggy.

When I’m at work, I only do my job and I want to be at home. The doctor has increased my medication and suggested counseling. Everything around me feels wrong. I do struggle a little bit coming out of bed. I hate these terrible feelings.

My daughter suggested listening to a podcast that she’s been listening to and helping her. So, I’m going to give it a try.

Happy Birthday!

This sweet boy is turning 15. I can’t believe how fast time goes by. Last night we went to celebrate his birthday at a restaurant and as I watch him looking at the menu all these memories of this little boy came in a flash.

Time is flying. As I get older this summer, I turn 62 I come to realize Where am I at this point in my life? Besides thinking of retirement next year. I know I have plenty of ideas I would like to do.

I feel my life has been a blessing with ups and downs. I have a job that I loved, a home, 38 years of marriage with a lovely husband, and my children and grandchildren. What else do I want? Hm… I still think of that little boy holding on to my knees, wanting to be picked up. I don’t want to feel I’m running out of time. Do I?

For now, happy birthday to my grandson. He deserves the best of the best.  This boy has a caring heart. He cares about everyone in his life. We are important to him. He’s loving, compassionate, and incredibly smart. He’s a blessing in our life.

 

JusJoJan the 27th, 2022- “Understanding”

I’m too old to understand this new generation or maybe I forgot how I raised my own children. For example, my granddaughter who is 14 turning 15 in March had all these emotions and feelings and I don’t know what to tell her.

She lives in Arizona with her sister and my daughter.  Recently she began to want to move back to North Dakota with us. She argues that mommy works all day, she doesn’t have any friends, and she doesn’t like Arizona.

My reaction as a grandma it’s lovely and sweet that she wants to be with us. What she doesn’t understand is that she needs to be with mommy. She needs to stop using the excuse of being alone and blame mommy for being working. I know she’s acting like a typical teenager but also, she needs to stop acting silly because everyone has to work including us.

I don’t understand her change of moods. It’s making me feel sad and I cry with her but she can’t do that to mommy.

We asked her all about what was bothering her at home or school. Her response it’s the same is she’s bored and does not like Arizona.

Understanding a teenager has become tough enough. I don’t know what to say anymore. I hope this goes away quickly and she can enjoy being a teenager.

JusJoJan is hosted by Linda G. Hill and the today prompt is given by Kim!

JusJoJanuary the 23rd, 2022

I guess we all have survived everything that has come into our life. Who doesn’t have survival skills?

I have survived growing up in a neighborhood with a group of bullies waiting for an opportunity to grab my arm or hair. Then, the pressure of being a teenager and surviving high school. With the adult years comes marriage, children, jobs, noisy neighbors, and my health.

Yes, we are survivors in one way or another. We all do.

Here I am a survivor, I have beat breast cancer. And I will continue to survive until the day I die.

JusJoJan hosted by Linda G. Hill

The word “surviving” is provided by Wendy. And please visit her blog. Thank you!

JusJoJanuary the 17th, 2022-“Joy”

Waking up full of joy on a Monday. It’s Martin Luther King’s Day and I’m off. It’s cold outside and I have no plans to go anywhere. However, the joy of being home in my pj’s with my cup of coffee is priceless. I don’t need to do much of the chores, because I already did it on Friday and Saturday. I only want to rearrange a few things around the house so it looks fresh. My weekend went great with my two youngest grandbabies staying the night. It was a sleepover at grandma’s house. We watched the movie “Hotel Transylvania: Transformania” the fourth movie. It wasn’t my favorite; however, my little ones enjoyed the movie.

The joy of spending quality time with my grandbabies gives me a good start to the week.

JusJoJan 2022 challenge by Linda G. Hill

Today’s word “Joy” is by Indieshe

JusJoJan the 16th, 2022- “Ridiculous”

After a rough week being sick, I’m up and ready to finish what I’ve started. However, let me clarify I didn’t stay home because of being sick. I went to work wearing my mask all day. I’ve to be up by 4:00 am and ready to go by 5:20 am. At the end of the workday at 1:30 pm when back home directly to bed without doing anything else. I’ve been exhausted from working and sick at the same time.

 

On Friday, I was feeling much better and went to work as normal. However, I wasn’t counting on this. The day before we got 10 inches of snow so after I got to work, they announced the schools from our district would have a 2-hour late start. Okay, not too bad. I was in school already and classes would begin at 10. No breakfast for the kiddos so I did my bookwork, my food orders for the week, and the inventory for the week. I was ahead of my work. At 8:30, I got an alert on my phone that school was canceled because of the road conditions. Really? Why the school district didn’t decide it earlier?

 

The roads were awful. It was hard to get out of the parking lot. And guess what happened next. I got stuck on the road almost got into a ditch. I’ve to call my husband. It took almost half an hour to get my vehicle out of the snow. I got home safely after all the hazards.

What a morning? Nope, I didn’t go back to bed. Instead, I’ve been cleaning the house. The rest of my Friday and all-day Saturday, but it’s done.

 

It feels good to be home. Here it is a ridiculous day in my life especially when I began to feel better. On the positive thought, I’m ahead on my paperwork from work and have all my chores caught up.

 

It’s time to relax and enjoy my day reading.

Your prompt for JusJoJan January 16th, 2022, is “ridiculous.” Use the word “ridiculous” any way you’d like. Have fun! Thanks to Lauren for the fun prompt.

JusJoJanuary 2nd, 2022- gobbledygook

It’s Sunday morning and I’m trying to figure out what is gobbledygook. I’ve never heard this word before so I’ve to google it. When I read the definition, I made an awe expression on my face. My granddaughter who was getting juice smiled and ask what’s going on. I asked her if she ever heard of the word gobbledygook. She also made an awe expression; however, she did say its sounds like a turkey talking to another turkey. We both laugh and my granddaughter says here to gobbledygook that I still don’t know what it is. My morning started with a wonderful laugh.

Thank you so much, Dan, for making me laugh with my granddaughter. Now, gobbledygook would be a word that we both will remember for a long time.

If you’d like to participate in Just Jot January, check Linda’s blog.  This is a fun writing challenge.

SoCS & Just Jot January-2022 “Resolve”

I gave up on resolutions because year after year I’ve failed and quickly. I’ve decided for this year to switch my resolution into a word of the year.  After weeks of thinking about which word would fit my needs, I decided on the word “FOCUS”. I need to apply focus to my life. I’ve been all over the place starting projects and not finishing them. I’ve been making excuses for not having time for anything and being lazy. Also, forgetting to take my meds or drink more water.

I want to prioritize my health, my mental wellness, and focus on my family and home. So, in the midst of all things, I’ll be tracking my commitments on my planner so I can stay focused on my challenge.

Wishing everyone in 2022, filled with love, laughter, and health.

Happy New Year!

SoCS & Just Jot January 1st, 2022

Merry Christmas!

 

I was up early this morning; My husband and I cooked for the family. When the kids arrived and saw the presents under the tree they were smiling. We opened presents and everyone was happy.  We had an amazing and blessing day!

We played games, watch The Polar Express and Santa Clause movies, and ate too much.

Everyone went home tired and happy. It’s time for us, to relax and watch more movies. My plans for tomorrow sleep at least until 10 am. Stay in my pajamas all day and relax.

May you have the spirit of Christmas, which is peace the gladness of Christmas, which is hope, and the heart of Christmas which is love.