SoCS~ Magic!

Your prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “ma.” Use it as a word or find a word with “ma” in it. Bonus points if you start your post with that word. Enjoy!

Magic…It’s the perfect “word” for the holidays. It’s what I always intend for my family and myself.

As December 1st the countdown to Christmas has begun. Can you imagine the pressure of the holidays on a person who suffers from depression? Every year, all I want it’s my family to have the best Christmas. It’s not about the gifts, it’s about being together and creating memories.

How can I find the magic of the holidays? Where is it? I know they showed it in the movies, however in real life where is it? For sure it’s not at the mall. I went shopping and some of the people were pushy, was cranky, and cutting in line like it was the last day on earth.

This is my favorite holiday; however, the pressure is already showing up. By the way, I’m almost done decorating my home and like every year the house is looking as winter in wonderland. Yes, I overdo it again.

My daughter has suggested to battle my depression with doing something for myself. She asks what was my dream when I was growing up. What it’s the one thing I always wants to accomplish. I didn’t have an answer. It’s been too long since I’ve my priorities straight. I’ve raised my children and then help with my grandkids so my goals and dreams has been postponed. And now I’ve an empty nest I feel my life has no purpose. So, what do I really want? Beside of having a happy family. I can’t believe nothing comes in my mind.

Should I get a new hobby, should I own my small café & book store that I always want, or should I keep writing short stories and put them out there instead of collecting them in my computer.

I’ll love to feel the Magic of Christmas and live in a magical world. However, it doesn’t work that way.

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I think, I’m ready!

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What a week. I can’t believe how busy I have been. I’m getting ready for the holidays. My house is all the decorated. Every room and corner of the house has been decorated and ready for the holiday. Today, I just finished my youngest son’s room. He will be back from college in a few days. I can’t wait to see his face. It looks festive. I just put a small blue tree in front of his window, a pair of nutcrackers on his desk, a bowl of candy, and a cute snowman on top of his TV. He’s so spoiled.

Yesterday, I did some of the groceries for the party, and the menu has been selected. I always have two activities one on Christmas Eve with the entire family and the second on Christmas Day with the kids and grandkids. My shopping is almost done, only one gift left, my husband.  Then, the hard part is wrapping all of them- that’s a challenge.

I feel the happiness of the season, but at the same time a little stress out.  Usually, the holidays cause all this mix emotions. The memories of my childhood always present, especially my mother. This is the time that I missed her the most.

I have one more week of work before my Christmas vacation will start. The school has a two week of vacation, so I better rest and enjoy the time.

I’m getting ready for bed; tomorrow will be the start of the countdown for our vacation. We will start the week with a potluck, then on the Tuesday exchange of gifts, and the rest of the week with candies and lots of sweetness. It’s fun and that’s one of the reasons I love my job.

I want to hear from my readers. How everyone is doing at this time of the year?  Are you ready for the holidays? Because I think I’m ready.

See you soon.

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