SoCS~ Magic!

Your prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “ma.” Use it as a word or find a word with “ma” in it. Bonus points if you start your post with that word. Enjoy!

Magic…It’s the perfect “word” for the holidays. It’s what I always intend for my family and myself.

As December 1st the countdown to Christmas has begun. Can you imagine the pressure of the holidays on a person who suffers from depression? Every year, all I want it’s my family to have the best Christmas. It’s not about the gifts, it’s about being together and creating memories.

How can I find the magic of the holidays? Where is it? I know they showed it in the movies, however in real life where is it? For sure it’s not at the mall. I went shopping and some of the people were pushy, was cranky, and cutting in line like it was the last day on earth.

This is my favorite holiday; however, the pressure is already showing up. By the way, I’m almost done decorating my home and like every year the house is looking as winter in wonderland. Yes, I overdo it again.

My daughter has suggested to battle my depression with doing something for myself. She asks what was my dream when I was growing up. What it’s the one thing I always wants to accomplish. I didn’t have an answer. It’s been too long since I’ve my priorities straight. I’ve raised my children and then help with my grandkids so my goals and dreams has been postponed. And now I’ve an empty nest I feel my life has no purpose. So, what do I really want? Beside of having a happy family. I can’t believe nothing comes in my mind.

Should I get a new hobby, should I own my small café & book store that I always want, or should I keep writing short stories and put them out there instead of collecting them in my computer.

I’ll love to feel the Magic of Christmas and live in a magical world. However, it doesn’t work that way.

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