A recap on my bullet Journal

I begin a journal in April. Having been depressed all the time I was missing appointments, forgetting to take my medicines, birthdays, and I was getting disorganized. My daughter gave me a Faith planner and I didn’t know what to expect. I decide to check on the internet and I found the bullet journal. I check a few sites and I was amazed by the creativity some people were put on it. You can track anything you want and decorated the way you like it. Of course, all the drawings weren’t necessary, however it makes the journal looks beautiful. I decide to make one.

 

The first two months I was tracking too many projects and I was overwhelmed. I want my journal to look like the ones I was seeing on the website. My first mistake I can’t draw therefore my journal wasn’t looking as beautiful as the one I was watching on the internet. I became more frustrated with it and I ended throwing the journal. I’ve to get a new one. Second mistake I was spending too much time overthinking and for that reason nothing was getting done. The depression was getting worse. My third mistake I was tracking too many projects and I wasn’t getting anywhere. I want to quit the journal, however I’m not a quitter.

 

I decide to give it another try, but this time in a different direction. I’ve to make this journal work for me. During the summer my journal was all about my vacation time with my grandkids. I track the places we visit, my mood tracker was pretty good, and I took all my medicines on time.

 

The month of August I made a few changes. I was tracking my eating habits and my appointments. Now I’m back to work and I want to incorporate a few things from work like my meetings and ordering. I don’t want to get overwhelmed, but I don’t want to forget those little things. In the future I can add some blogging ideas and with the holidays approaching a shopping list.

 

A lesson learned I don’t need to compete with other journals. My journal must accomplish my needs and keep me organized.

 

Where is the kindness?

The other day I went shopping and they’re an incident in the parking lot. Somebody took a parking space when another driver was waiting for it. It made me think how much people has changed. These days people are living in a rush and some of them not even have any respect for others. They don’t follow their Stop signs, they run of red lights, and they speed and cut in front of you like there is a “no tomorrow”. They’re usually rude, angry, and selfish.

 

A few weeks ago, a lady in a rush almost hit my car because she wants to take the closest parking space. It makes me upset not for the space, however of the way she was driving without considering my granddaughter was in the car. She didn’t care, she just wants to run her errands as quickly as possible.

 

A couple of times in Arizona my daughter has to tell a few drivers to chill. They don’t even wait a few seconds for the red light to change, immediately you can hear the horn. My goodness, that was annoying. Why this generation has to live in this rush? That’s one of the reasons people are so stressed out.

 

Where is kindness? It’s rare and sad if you hear a hello or, a good morning. It is possible that people can change because what I see it’s a new generation growing with a terrible attitude and no manners.

A fun trip

After two weeks vacationing in Arizona with my beautiful girls I’m back home. I always said I love the warm weather, however the last week the temperature went as high at 116 degrees. Like my daughter would say wait for July and August. Back to the two weeks I spend with my beautiful girls I got pampered by my daughter who has a Beauty Studio. From a facial to microblading my eyebrows-finally I’ve eyebrows after my cancer treatment I didn’t have any. I spend time with my granddaughters shopping, we went to the water park, the Phoenix Zoo, went hiking, and having ice cream, and my favorite drink slushies.

The most amazing day was spending the day of my birthday with them. When I wake up on June 7th, they took me to have brunch at Butters Pancake Café in Scottsdale and a nice dinner at Pappadeaux Seafood Kitchen in Phoenix. The following morning, I went to see The Domes in Casa Grande, AZ. What an amazing and interested it place, it really makes me think of who was the one who begun this project, why wasn’t finished, or maybe the aliens change their minds. I heard too many stories from those Domes. It was a fun trip also I went to check a home that maybe we will purchase for when we retired.

Now I’m back to North Dakota and my two granddaughters came to spend a month with us. So, we have plans for a few fun road trips we’re planning a trip to South Dakota, Medora, and Minnesota. I can’t believe my oldest granddaughter will be a freshman this fall. Time goes so fast and I want to enjoy every minute.

My husband also is a happy grandpa with all four grandkids for Father’s Day.

Here are a few pictures from my trip and I’m glad to be back. 

Making plan for spring

It’s time to have a plan. I’m an organized person at work and a disorganized at home. So, I’ve learned to keep a planner. What I like about it, I can follow it exactly as I want or make any changes here and there.


It’s time to make my spring list and enjoy every minute before it disappears before my eyes. Here in North Dakota spring and summer are short seasons. We still have plenty of snow on the ground means no cleaning outside.


Until then, I can begin cleaning my closet, especially my husband. However, I can’t wait for fresh air and sitting outside under my favorite tree.

Here is my Spring bucket list:
1- Clean the closets
2- Donate anything it’s not needed it
3- Clean my yard
4- Plant flowers, shrubs, vegetables, and I want a plum tree
5- Fixed and clean my special garden in my backyard. It’s where I spread my dog’s ashes.
6- Begin my everyday walks. I love those it clears my head.
7- Play outside with my grandkids
8- Go to the farmers market
9- Drink a lot of lemonade and smoothies
10- It’s time to plan for the summer

A letter to God

Dear God;

I wake up this morning wanting to write in this letter. I pray daily. I ask questions and I ask for answers. I feel I don’t know how to talk or listen to you. As a mother my children are my priority and when I pray, I always ask you to protect them. My daughter called last night heartbroken and I got upset. Why her? Why if I leave my children in your care this has to happen to her? I’m trying to understand.

I’m a decent person. I’m grateful for everything I’ve I always do, still it looks it’s not enough. Why, when I think everything is going well these things have to happen? How can I help my daughter when I don’t an answer from you?

God, why I can’t hear your voice? Don’t feel offended, I’m not challenging you I want to hear you. I want what others claim they can hear your voice. Do I need to do something different? I’m getting tired of praying and praying and feeling that no one cares. Don’t take it in a wrong way I’m not questioning your authority. I love going to church, reading passages of the bible, and listening to gospel music. Meanwhile, everyone else feels the grace of your love, however my heart feels empty. Why?

I’m not depressed. My mind is clear and I’m focus. This is not about myself not believing in you, because I do believe in you. I believe in the power of prayers and I do believe in miracles. What it’s wrong?

I understand no one’s life is perfect and we all have to deal with difficulties. There is ups and downs in everyone’s life and we have to try to be a better person. My sister like to say it’s God’s will and he knows what is doing or God has a purpose. A purpose, what kind of purpose. All I want is my prayer be heard. Oh God, my daughter needs you now.

Why you test our love and respect? What’s my purpose and how I can prove it to you? I sound upset and yes, I am. However, please don’t punish myself for being upset and don’t take it on my children. It’s true, I don’t go to church often; however, it doesn’t make me a terrible person. Okay I’m going to ask what is your plan for me and my family?

I don’t want to hear any criticism or is God’s plans from anyone, because my heart is crying for my daughter. God this is me you know my heart. This is a mother who is praying for her daughter. Also, I think I’ve proved my love for you. I know you have to answer to others prayers; however, I do want to hear your voice like any other Christian who claims you do answer their prayers. If that it’s a selfish request?

Again, I’m not depressed I’m just sad about this situation. I will keep praying, I will keep my faith, and I will keep waiting for an answer. I hope my daughter gets the peace and clarity she needs.

I hope I can get what I’m asking from you. And I’m sorry for my mistakes since I’m not perfect.

Happy Valentine’s Day!

It’s Valentine’s Day and I’m secluded at home. I went to the Dr. yesterday with both of my arm cover in a red, itchy rash. It’s a virus maybe I catch it at the school or at home. The Dr. says is airborne and the kids carry this virus as a dormant virus. I’m lucky it’s not contagious, however it’s uncomfortable. It hurts and it’s desperately itchy. The Dr. prescribes a steroid and Benadryl to stop the madness. Those are the exact words my Dr. says to me. It was actually pretty funny when she saw my arms and looking at me, she says, “what the heck?” I’ve to be out of school for the next two days in case it gets worse. So here I am at my home bored and thinking another Valentine Day at the house. We were planning to go to Olive Garden. Also, it makes me think it’s over 10 years we don’t have a romantic dinner at a restaurant.

I supposed I’ll prepare dinner and unfortunately, I can’t have any wine. That’s a bummer! My husband will bring flowers and my favorite chocolate candies.

To everyone who celebrate Valentine’s Day, the day of love and friendship, have a marvelous day with lots and lots of love. Remember, Valentine’s Day should be celebrated everyday and recognize the people who we love and care.

#JusJoJan 2019 Prompt Jan 3rd~ My Blog

For today’s Just Jot It January post, Linda G. Hill asks us to jot about our blogs.

I took an online class “Blogging for beginners” and I started two blogs in September 2013. One from Bloggers and this one in WordPress. I just wanted to write small stories and thoughts. I wrote a few stories in Blogger and there was no response. I decide to quit Blogger. When I was close to quit this blog, a few readers begin to make comments and I decide to stay. One detail is missing in this blog is to write those short stories that no one from the other blog read.

As for the theme or niche there isn’t one. I’ve made a few changes over the years to be honest, I can get bored easily. So, I need to keep it fresh and interesting.

Blogging has changed my life, even if I don’t blog daily. I enjoy reading other bloggers, especially the ones I follow. I love reading their post and get to know them basis in their writings. I want to thank everyone who supports my blog with your comments. It makes my day.

#JusJoJan 2019