To all servicemen and women presently serving and all that served in the past. Thank you for keeping us, safe and for all your sacrifice. May God bless you all, protect you, and keep you safe.
To all my family members who have served in the Armed Forces, especially to my husband Josue I Thank You and I love you all.
Everyone who has been reading my post from my blog knows the depression I have been suffering has taken over my life. It’s terrible, because no matter how much I fight it to take control of my mind it’s getting harder and harder. It’s making my life miserable and I don’t want to do anything at all. I’m struggling to smile.
So, when I have those small times where I feel a little better I take advantage and do some of my stuff. Yesterday I went shopping with my husband who’s always trying to please me and he suggested to begin looking for Halloween decorations, however yesterday wasn’t a good day. I wasn’t motivated to do anything at all.
A friend of mine who is going through also with severe depression mentioned she’s using CBD oils and it’s working for her. I’m more afraid on those types of medicine, however if I can’t find anything that helps me, maybe I should try it, too. Meanwhile, this afternoon I will be going to church sometimes listening to the priest it gives an inner peace. All I want is to be happy and I want to feel in control, again.
Yesterday (Saturday) it was my first day by myself. My husband took his parents back home to Puerto Rico. He will be there until Tuesday. The trip went terrific and he’s already enjoying family time at the beach. Meanwhile, my day has been acceptable. I’ve been watching shark-cheesy movies on SyFy channel.
It has been a relaxing Sunday. Took care of some paper works and spending the rest of the day watching my shark movies. I just finished watching the premiere of the last Sharknado #6. It was entertaining and full of fun parts. If this is the last movie like they’re announcing it was a great end to the series. Maybe for next year they’ll decide to create a different another type of cheesy movies. Those movies are great when you feel down.
To the ones who’s still up this late enjoy the rest of the night and for me it’s time to finish a book I already begin reading a few days ago.
A quiet Sunday morning. Everyone is sleeping, meanwhile I’m up too early because I can’t sleep. I’m enjoying a cup of coffee, sitting in my chair with Bruno sleeping close to me. Also, I’m thinking too much and that’s a problem.
This will be the last week my in laws will be here in North Dakota. They would be going back to Puerto Rico after spending two months with us and my husband is making this trip with them. Also, it will be my last week of vacation the new school year would begin on the 23rd.
My summer has been a fun one. I made a few trips, drink a few spritzers, and ate too much ice cream. I work in my flower garden, made a few changes outside in my backyard, and around the house. I did enjoy having all the grandkids together during the week of the wedding, and the weather has been great for BBQ’s, lake, and walking. However, my depression has been awful. I’m not taking any MEDs (doctor orders) and it’s harder to stay focused. When the depression takes over, I can’t stop crying, and I don’t feel safe.
I always thought at this stage of my life, it would be easier. My home is free of children, the house looks cleaner, it’s quiet, and I can do whatever I want. However, I feel lonely, and more depressed than when I’ve a full house and running around. At this point in my life I’ve to figure out what should I do next and how I can battle this depression.
Why do you blog?
I begin blogging in Aug. 2013 as an assignment for one of my online classes. I thought I would do it just until the class was done, however the idea of writing and expressing my thoughts won over me. In the beginning I didn’t know what to write, what kind of theme I would use, and how many times I should write. I was afraid that I wasn’t good enough and no one would read it.
I don’t blog daily I wish I had the time, but at least three times a week I would write a post. I’ve found inspiration in other blogs.
- to improve my writing
- to keep my mind focus
- to connect with others
- to have fun
Daily Post: Why do you blog?
Your blog just became a viral sensation. What’s the one post you’d like new readers to see and remember you by? Write that post.
I don’t think my blog will become viral one day. Isn’t that I don’t believe in myself is just I’ve written that post yet.
Every post that I have written has been a journey and they have been a chance to improve my writings. Also going on this journey it makes me realize how much I’ve learned and grow. However, if for any reason will turn into a viral sensation I hope my blog has made a difference to every person who read it.
Do I want to be remembered just for one specific post? To be honest, I want to be remembered for every post I have published. Or maybe I don’t want my blog to go viral. I’m not sure if I will like that type of spotlight.
Tomorrow night we will be saying goodbye to 2014. Actually it has been a good year for me. I enjoy it every single minute with my family and friends. I accomplish and learn a lot at work. The entire year has been a blessing. Yes, I did have some difficult time where I have a few stressful days and I got it under control with meds’. Otherwise, 2014 has been good.
Looking back, I did finish a few projects. I work on my garden so this year I obtain a mixture of beautiful flowers. My summer vacation has been one of the best. I spend it at the lake. I conquest my fear of being in the water, I took a ride with my son on the Jet Ski, and I went fishing on my husband’s boat.
I complete my reading and writing challenges. My blog has grown from last year and I’m more confident when I write my posts.
Last year resolution was to add more gratitude into my life and I did. So I can say I will miss 2014.
For 2015 my New Year Resolution will be:
- Keep writing in my daily gratitude journal that I started last year.
- Keep thanking and counting my blessings.
- Take a little more time for myself. Do my nails or go to the movies.
- Take a vacation with my husband. Just us.
- Relax and enjoy every single minute with the grandkids. They are getting older and one day they will have other interests.
- Spoiled my cute dog- Taina- she gives me unconditional love.
- Read over 30 books and add to my challenge a difficult book. Maybe one that I read in high school and I didn’t understand like “War and Peace”.
- Write, write, and write. Write on my blog, finish writing my book, and keep working on my family tree.
- Keep taking online classes. They have improved the way I write, I feel more confident, and they’re free.
- Try to eat healthier and cut my sugars. Just a little bit to satisfy the doctor and myself.
So tomorrow I will say Goodbye to 2014 and Welcome 2015 to my life with a glass of wine and twelve grapes for my wishes. I’m ready!