Courage

In four days I’m going to take my father’s ashes back home. I’ve the courage to move his urn to my living room close to my chair. His bedroom door still close. At soon I leave on Tuesday my husband will be cleaning it up. My father’s clothes would be donated to the Goodwill store. The wheelchair, walker, and his shower chair it will be in a closet until I find someone who can need it.

I’m preparing myself with courage and lots of prayers. The day is approaching and I’m taking baby steps. My two siblings in Puerto Rico are making the arrangements for his funeral service. Spending time with all my family it would be less painful.

When this is all over I hope I’m strong enough to move on. He will be always in my heart like my mother.


Here is a picture of my father’s urn also my little dog who also is next to my chair.

Daily Post: Courage

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A sad trip

In two weeks I will be traveling with my two brothers and my sister to Puerto Rico. We are taking our father’s ashes to his last resting place. He will be buried with my mother. I’m having mixed feelings about it. For a moment I feel ready to take him back and the next time I want to keep him here with me.

When I walk near his bedroom it’s as if I see him sitting in his bed watching his western movies. It’s going to be a tough day, however it’s time to let him go.

 

From this sad trip there is one thing it makes me happy, all six children will be together. We will be supporting each other and united more than ever. It will ease the pain of our father’s loss.

All together in 1997

#JusJoJan 2018, the 14th ~Ultimatum

As a mother of three there was also an ultimatum. If they didn’t follow the house rules there would be consequences. I wasn’t as tough like my husband, but when they didn’t listen or follow the house rules they would be grounded.

On the other hand, as a grandma it’s a different story. We have the same house rules like when I was raising the kids, however when it comes to the grandkids I’m softer.

It’s funny how I can give them the ultimatum with a straight face and when they give me a pouty face I change my mind. They’re well-behaved, polite, respectful, and lovely. They don’t like helping with chores and when they visited they’re messy.

I always want to be the fun grandma as a result, I give the ultimatums to my kids. At this moment they’re living in my shoes also they’re pulling their hair.

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Express

I express my love to my kids and grandkids in different ways and my favorite is texting emojis with hearts. Yesterday, I went to pick up my grandkids from school. As soon they enter the car I ask how was their day, if they have homework, and “I love you”. However, when I went to pick up my oldest she’s in middle school, her reaction a typical teen. Like any girl of her age, she grumbles, looks tired, and rolls her eyes. So, when I ask regarding her day, this is her response “same as every day grandma and I know you love me. Don’t need to tell me”.

I kept quiet and turn on the radio. My other two grandkids who remain in the back of the car immediately say “we love you, grandma”. I smile and we switch the conversation to something else.

My oldest since she turns 13 she’s quieter, grumpy, and her only concern her best friends. We use to talk and now our long conversations are quick and I missed it. I’m aware is a typical teen and it will pass. However, I want her to understand she can count on me for anything.

After we got to the house, she gave me a hug and whisper in my ear “I love you grandma”.

 

Daily Post: Express

Finally, great news!

After eight long days watching the news and waiting to communicate with my family, finally I got to talk to them. The communication is very limited and the only connection is a phone land. Any other cellular company like T-Mobile, Verizon, or AT&T they don’t work. It’s incredible how much people pay for expenses cellular phones and the only ones working it’s the land lines or the local company.

My in-laws lost everything they have and when I spoke to them I can feel their sadness. They were prepared for the hurricane because their home is close to the coast, still it’s difficult to see the damages. My brother and my sister live in two different areas and they didn’t lost as much. The people in Puerto Rico doesn’t have electric power, water is running out, short on food, and unable to go back to work. A few stores are beginning to open but it’s difficult to get there. Besides they have a curfew from 6pm to 5am for safety and the wait for help it’s moving slowly.

I’m happy to have the chance to hear from them and knowing they are safe. For now, I’m waiting for the postal service to begin working so I can send a few packages and money.
Thank you to everyone who are keeping Puerto Rico in their prayers. I know my people from Puerto Rico are strong and they will get the help they need.

 

the island with no electric power

One-Liner Wednesday~Happy Birthday to me!

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#1linerWeds badge by Dan Antion

“Live your life and forget your Age.”  

I love this quote. This is the way I feel today is my birthday. Oh my God, I turn 57 and I never thought I would survive. When I was 48 and diagnosed with breast cancer I felt I would die. I was afraid for my kids accomplish and my husband. My mother passed away at the young age of 48. Today looking in the mirror, I feel grateful for my life. I’m cancer free and enjoying my babies. My mother didn’t have the chance to meet and adore her 13 grandkids and 14 great grandkids.
My plans for today a trip to the Zoo and have a fantastic time with my four grandkids. I’m sure we will have fun. My husband would be taking me to dinner and we picked Thai food.
I am grateful for having a wonderful life and I hope to keep it this way.

 

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