Tough Journey

My life has been a tough journey. One of my resolutions for this year was to take care of my health. Then again, it has been a tough one and I mean it. I can’t believe at this stage of my life, how the depression has taken over and changed my personality. The part I don’t like when it’s affecting my family and myself. I’ve stopped taking my MEDs since the week of my son’s wedding. It wasn’t doing any good. I decide to fight the depression with natural remedies and I still don’t see any improvements.

This weekend has been a tough one. I’m trying to keep my mind occupied with reading, coloring, or trying to write. However, these simple tasks are getting harder when I can’t concentrate and my thoughts are all over the place.

My husband found in Hulu a new series by Stephen King named “Castle Rock” and he wants to watch it with me. I need to be relaxed so I can be ready for work tomorrow.

 

I need this

I’ve been dealing with depression what it looks like forever. I’ve days I feel great, energetic, and positive wanting to do anything.  However, it can change in a second feeling opposite and wanting to be alone. The mood swings are interfering with my life and hurting the people I love. 

My family wants me to make a few changes like eating healthier, meditate, and take a break. Lately I’ve been taking everything seriously and too personal and I need to stop. I want to be the person I was before instead I’ve turned on this moody and cranky person. It makes feel guilty and unhappy.

The word “pause” is a reflection on what I need to do. I’ve to reconnect with all the things that it makes me feel blessed.  My daughter has suggested to disconnect with social media for a while such as Facebook. When I open my account, it was to reconnect with my family and longtime friends. In the beginning, it was exciting to find them to look at their family pictures and how much they have accomplished. However, the fun and the excitement completely gone. Facebook has turned into a bunch of complainers who loves to spread their negativity. Sadly, I’ve to eliminate some from my list of friends, including family members.

I won’t close my account.  I’ve nice people I care very much, I simply want to take a break. Very soon school will be over and my vacation will begin.  It will be time for camping with my grandkids also planning a few trips out of the state.

For now, I’m keeping my Pinterest and my blog. I feel relaxed when I’m blogging or pinning of course, watch a few TV shows, too. Taking care of myself will be good at the end it will take me on a journey to a new me.

 

Daily Post: Pause