SoCs- “empty”

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “the last thing you emptied.” Think of the last thing you emptied or something you empty often and use it as your prompt any way you like. Have fun!

 I have been cleaning the house. I have a full garbage bag with empty cleaning containers, bottles of shampoo, soap, lotion, and many others. I emptied my garbage can, it was kind of heavy but then everything was refilled again.

It’s early morning and everyone is still asleep. I’m taking a few moments for myself with my cup of coffee and on the computer.

My Saturday will be a busy one with chores to finish and grocery shopping. However, for tonight a bottle of wine will be waiting for me, so another empty bottle.

SoCS- “empty” by Linda G. Hill

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SoCS- “Wild Animal”

I go to work at 5:30 am so you can imagine not a lot of traffic and during the winter time it’s dark. I have to be very careful when I’m driving because on the route, I take to work they always have deer. It looks like an entire family, that’s what I call them. They get blinded by the light of the cars so they run from one side to the other. They are looking for food. Some residents are feeding them and it’s illegal. It’s frustrating and also scary since they can cause an accident. I have learned to be patient. I don’t want to hit one with my vehicle.

Then, back from work by 2 pm, no deer. However, we have wild turkeys roaming around in the afternoon. Again, I think is an entire family. Those are the worse because of their slow motion and sometimes they don’t want to move. The reason the animals keep coming back is that some residents are feeding them and it’s illegal.

This is my everyday driving from home to work.

SoCS- “Wild Animal”

SoCS- “Heart”

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “heart.” Use it any way you like. Have fun!

February is the month of love, hearts, flowers, and chocolates. I have been evaluating my goals, what to improve, and what is working for me. I do notice in the first month of January I have been pushing myself to get things done. I checked my previous journals and they all look the same. January and February are tough months for me.  It looks like I put a lot of heart into it with no results.   Those two months were the ones when I was depressed, feeling blah, and miserable.

We are in the second week of February and I want to make changes. I do realize I’m in the same cycle over and over. I have to change directions and look at my life differently. For this month I’m going to concentrate on one goal, “Love Myself”. If I want to be happy, be created, and accomplish what I love then I have to put myself first. I have to be confident that no matter what happens I can have a better life.

Happy Valentine’s Day! 

SoCS- “Heart”

SoCS~ on my plate

At this time in my life, I can say it’s a half and a half on my plate. At work, some days are more stressful than others however we have smiley days, too. In my personal life, I have been calmer. I’m taking Meds for the past two years for depression and I’m still working on a few issues.

I have learned to be careful who I have around and to separate myself from the ones who cause a toxic environment. Including a few family members.  I did cut down on social media and deleted a few accounts.  It’s been helpful.

I’ve learned how to handle the unhealthy situation and certain days can be challenging. I do have lovely days where my mind feels calm and peaceful. I have my “me time” and “quiet time” where I’m reading and journal. Play days with my grandkids and quality time with my husband.

The holidays have arrived and with the holidays the stress can fill my plate extremely fast. I simply need to take the time to breathe. It can be a challenge.

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SoCS- morning

Good morning, North Dakota. Winter is already and it looks like it will be a long one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SoCS- “morning” is hosted by Linda G. Hill

 

SOCS- favorite word

I have a few words that I love and sometimes it looks like people are forgetting them. Like this one: kindness, friendship, honesty, etc.

With the election coming next week people are getting ugly. The world has changed to be dominated by those people who don’t care about others. It’s sad to watch the News and see people being treated by an insensitive human being. Also, they are so proud of themselves that they are wearing a mask. How ugly these people can be. It’s one reason I have deleted my Twitter account being bullied it was enough.

My concentration will be to care about the people I love, to pray for whoever wins the election, and to be conscious of people’s needs.

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SoCS~ Remembering childhood phrases

This is a nice prompt and perfect for Mother’s Day weekend.

I remember in Puerto Rico my mother would have phrases that sometimes didn’t make any sense; however, they were powerful.  Funny thing at the I didn’t understand it until I started using it on my kids. My mother has to deal with six kids, she uses those phrases to keep us in shape. She would say “don’t make me get up”, that was the warning.

Also, my mother uses the famous chancla (flip flops). She would throw that chancla to us and never miss. She was an expert.  

-A few of her phrases I still remember:

-I’m telling you for your own good

-Put on some VapoRub

-When you have your own children, you will remember me.

-I don’t care about the rest; I care about you.

-My house is not a hotel or a restaurant

-While you live in this house…

-When I give you permission?

-This hurts me more than it hurts you

-And if your friend throws themselves out of the window so, would you?

-Because I said so!

 Funny phrases coming from this Puerto Rican family. I miss you, mami.

 Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there.  

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SoCS~ “Rope”

One of my favorite memories was playing jumping rope with my friends. Is one of my favorite games. I was great except when we had to jump faster. Every Saturday afternoon we would be outside playing until dinner time.  The memories of my childhood bring me joy.

These days are a little different. In my neighborhood, it’s rare to watch any kid playing outside. The children these days spend more time in their computer games or watching TV.

As soon our weather begins warming up, I’ll take my grandkids outside and play.  That will give them a break from the TV or computer games. I can’t jump rope anymore, however; the memories of all of us playing outside are precious.

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SoCS~ Feeling much rested

After a month of been struggling to get out of bed and fighting my depression, I’m up and smiling again. It looks the medication has been working also my daughter sends me CBD oil to calm my nerves.

I’m feeling much in control of my emotions. My mind and body feel rested and stronger. The worst part of being depressed is missing two days of work. I was feeling miserable to the point that everything hurts. I have spent most of the time crying until they were no more tears coming out.

It was harsh and an awful feeling. Little by little all these awful thoughts, had started to disappear. My body and soul begin to feel lighter.

I woke up this morning with more energy. I made coffee and read the paper. The sun came out and no matter it was 39 degrees it felt great. Step out for a few minutes and I got to breathe fresh air.

I know I need to stop worrying about things I can’t control, however, knowing myself will never stop. I worried about every foolish issue that goes around.

Besides the medication and the CBD oil, another tool that helped me during this process was journaling. Writing in my journal my feelings and the nonsense I felt it a process for healing. I’m getting a counselor, I need it.

I feel rested, my soul feels rested. And with a smile, I’m living another day.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SoCS- rest

SoCS & Just Jot January-2022 “Resolve”

I gave up on resolutions because year after year I’ve failed and quickly. I’ve decided for this year to switch my resolution into a word of the year.  After weeks of thinking about which word would fit my needs, I decided on the word “FOCUS”. I need to apply focus to my life. I’ve been all over the place starting projects and not finishing them. I’ve been making excuses for not having time for anything and being lazy. Also, forgetting to take my meds or drink more water.

I want to prioritize my health, my mental wellness, and focus on my family and home. So, in the midst of all things, I’ll be tracking my commitments on my planner so I can stay focused on my challenge.

Wishing everyone in 2022, filled with love, laughter, and health.

Happy New Year!

SoCS & Just Jot January 1st, 2022