Jolt

Very true. What was my little jolt? Yes, I know I’m 56 and it has me take a while to figure things out also appreciate them. The depression likes to take over, however I’ve made a decision to change for good. I’ve lost from my family so much that enough is enough. Not be able to assist to my granddaughter’s baptism, it has been the little jolt I need. I’m not at the family picture from that special day. I broke into tears.

 

Here is what I’m doing:

1-    Take my medicine for depression – I’m taking it daily.

2-    Take my medicine for my Type 2 diabetes- I’m taking it twice a day, no matter if they make me sick in my stomach.

3-    I’ve begin eating healthy and no more than 1200 calories. Watching what I’m eating and I’m keeping track with an app on my phone. I’ve already lose 10 pounds.

4-    I’m walking every day. It clears my mind. Plus, my grandson and my dog are loving it.

5-    Using less social media. I didn’t realize it was taking too much of my time.

6-    I went back to my online classes. I’m taking “Writing Fiction” and they’re fun.

7-    I’m reading more than usual.

8-    I’m taking the time to pray and meditate. It has been great for my soul.

 

I want to be happy and healthy. I can’t let the depression take over. It took a simple photo to make me realize how much I was missing.

Daily Post: Jolt

Healing

Since I stop being on social media it has been fantastic. I’m relax and enjoying other things. I get tempted to peak on my phone or computer once in a while.  However, I will get used to it and it won’t control my life. It was causing emotional stress and it wasn’t fun anymore. I’ve time to write daily filing up pages in my journal with positive thinking and working on my stories. I’m sure I will be back and then I will eliminate those friends and family and they would not have control of me.

Plus, I’ve begin with my spring cleaning and planning to start planting in my garden. Taking this break has helped with my depression and also with my type 2 diabetes. I don’t feel overwhelmed.  I didn’t realize how much energy I’ve waste with social media. I’m listening to more music, reading more than usual, and writing every day. I can’t believe I’m walking and feel more relaxed. I know everything in life has a limit and I was overboard.

 I’ve to let go what makes me feel unhappy like losing my mother years ago plus not having the help of my siblings with our dad. Yes, I need to let it go and heal my soul.

 

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Empty

My girls had a sleepover last night and they had a lot of fun. They were watching movies, playing games, and eating every goody we have in the covers. I can hear them laughing and giggling and by 4am it was total silence. Finally I can sleep a little bit I’ve until 6:30 to start my day.

 

The coffee pot begins to brew at 6:30, the house is quiet and my hubby will be up by 6:45 to get ready for work. I take advantage of the silence and put a load of laundry, have a wake up shower and check my emails.  By the time my hubby leaves for work I’ve a load of clothes in the dryer and a second batch washing. I have my coffee made and I’m ready to begin writing. I’ve a few hours to myself before everyone starts to wake up.

 

Meanwhile I’m writing, I like to have my coffee with something sweet and with no surprise all the boxes are empty. Common, there is no Twinkies, no mini donuts, and no cookies. My garbage can is full of empty boxes.

 

For my benefit this is good news I’ve Type 2 Diabetes and I’ve to be careful, however my sweet tooth is cravings for sweet. It doesn’t help looking at those empty boxes.

My girls had a sleepover last night and they had a lot of fun. They were watching movies, playing games, and eating every goody we have in the covers. I can hear them laughing and giggling and by 4am it was total silence. Finally I can sleep a little bit I’ve until 6:30 to start my day.

 

The coffee pot begins to brew at 6:30, the house is quiet and my hubby will be up by 6:45 to get ready for work. I take advantage of the silence and put a load of laundry, have a wake up shower and check my emails.  By the time my hubby leaves for work I’ve a load of clothes in the dryer and a second batch washing. I have my coffee made and I’m ready to begin writing. I’ve a few hours to myself before everyone starts to wake up.

 

Meanwhile I’m writing, I like to have my coffee with something sweet and with no surprise all the boxes are empty. Common, there is no Twinkies, no mini donuts, and no cookies. My garbage can is full of empty boxes.

 

For my benefit this is good news I’ve Type 2 Diabetes and I’ve to be careful, however my sweet tooth is cravings for sweet. It doesn’t help looking at those empty boxes.

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Struggle

Everyone struggles with something in their lives it’s a process of growing and getting stronger. My struggles over the years are mostly health issues as an example my diabetes.  I’ve type 2 diabetes taking MEDs everyday and trying to eat as healthy as I can also I supposed to exercise daily that I truly dislike. I try to control the sweets by drinking healthy smoothies that I find in Pinterest. I begin feeling great, however the craving for sweets doesn’t stop there.

 

Another struggle that I’m sure many people go through it will be weight loss. I cook at home every day and I use portion control. I try to avoid going out for fast food, except when I try to please my grandkids. How much I’ve lost? Since changing the way I cook or eat, I’ve lost 15 pounds. To keep it off has been a challenge and I’m working on it.

 

Yes, I struggle with many things, but struggling is a process of growing and learning. It gives me the strength to create a better life for myself.

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Shoulda Woulda Coulda

I should take care of my health in a better way. I’ve Type 2 Diabetes and I take medicine. I’m not on insulin yet, however I’ve to be careful. I went to pay a visit to my Dr on Friday and my labs shows a high sugar level of 232. Yikes!

She gives me three months to make a drastic change or she’s going to prescribe insulin. I don’t like needles.

I’ve to begin immediately a healthy diet, no sugars, take my medicines regularly and exercise.

I don’t want to make any excuses, except it’s going to be hard and difficult to follow a healthy diet. My kitchen it’s filled with cookies, lollipops, Twinkies, donuts, and ice cream. As a grandma, my house has to be filled with goodies for the kids. I’ve a bunch of temptation, however I need to try it and do my best.

This is my goal:

  1. Eat better- no diets- simply eat healthy
  2. Walk for 20-30 minutes – daily
  3. Bike- twice a week
  4. No candies, no cookies, and no ice cream.

I’ve my check out with my doctor in three months and I’m hoping my sugar levels goes down.

 

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