I’ve been sick for the past few days and I missed the prompt from yesterday, so here I am trying to participate in today. It’s hard to concentrate on writing when I spend most of the night coughing and my chest hurt. My husband makes me hot chamomile tea with honey to soothe my cough. I sipped my hot tea, hoping this will calm down this horrible cough. Every time I cough My heads feels it wants to explode. He’s making soup for supper and he wants me to go back to bed. Maybe, I will try tomorrow to keep with the prompt challenge. I can’t think nothing else with the other words.
#JusJoJan 2019 ~January 1 – Write about 2018, your plans for 2019, or anything you’d like
Happy New Year to all my blogging friends!
Looking back, I did have a tough year. My depression dominated mostly the entire year and at some point, it cripples in achieving what I desire.
In 2018, my in-laws visit for the summer, I went to South Dakota, Wyoming, Arizona, my youngest son married in July, my daughter also married in Nov, I read and reviews more books than other years check my Goodreads challenge, I lost 20 pounds, I wrote almost every day, I began going to church- not every week but at least more frequent. So, what I’m missing? Why this mental illness wants to take over and ruins my life?
My husband asked me last night what I want on this New Year. I didn’t need to think too much. I want to be happy and this inside pain gone forever. How I make myself to be happy? I’ve been blessed with a wonderful husband, three children, and four grandkids. I’m blessed for having my family and a job I love, and for everything I own. What I don’t understand it’s this feeling that I’m missing something, and I feel lonely.
My only resolution or goal for 2019 will be taking care of this depression. I can’t continue living like nothing it’s happening. I’m tired of appearing that I’m happy and hiding my depression from everyone. I will concentrate on taking care of myself, so I can enjoy my life with my love ones.
Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “flower/flour.” Use one, use both, it’s totally up to you. Enjoy!
My least favorite season Autumn has just arrived. A few reasons why I don’t like the season it brings cold weather, strong winds, and short days. Also, my beautiful flowers and plants began to die. Yeah, the color of the trees began to change and they look beautiful; however, the leaves are becoming to fall, meaning it’s time for raking and get prepared for the cold winter. Here in North Dakota the snow comes too early and occasionally we get snow before Halloween. So, to have a little of color in my front yard, I bought a different color of mums, however with this dropping temperature who knows how long it’s going to last. Beside my lovely mums I got tulips, allium, and lily bulbs that I will be planting.
And for the flour well, I think it’s time to make a small batch of cookies.
If you are wondering how I’m doing. Well a little better. I saw my doctor and she got me some MEDs. This past week was tough; however, with the Meds I’m beginning to feel enthusiasm to decorate for Halloween. The next couple of months would be the tougher because in Oct should be my dad’s 82 birthday and in Nov should be a year since he’s gone. I know I’ve to cope with those issues, but I’m going day by day.
Thanks to all of you whom one way or another care and help me with your words.
Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “round.” Use it as a word by itself or find a word that contains it. Bonus points if you start and/or finish your post with it. Have fun!
A few rounds of drinks with my husband on this Saturday night. Also watching a new series on Prime TV called “Jack Ryan” based on the books from Tom Clancy. So far, it’s been a great weekend after a harsh couple of months. My anxiety, my stress, and depression have been in control for the past couple of days. I still don’t take any MEDs, however I made an appointment to see my doctor to check for new alternatives. I’ve to work hard to keep it in control. I’m focusing on eating healthy, walking, and entertaining myself with a few hobbies. Another round of gin tonic is coming and we already on episode 4 of this terrific show.
“I don’t care how strong you are, you’re allowed to cry. Even big cities need rain. ~ Erin Van Vuren
I’m driving around campus and I’m noticing the excitement in all the faces. They group and they’re meeting with their old friends. They look as they’re discussing their schedules. The new students are welcome and they all walk in small groups. I notice some of the new comers looks nervous with a shy smile. My nephew is part of that group. By next week all the rest of the schools would be fulfilled with laughter and ready for the school year. I can’t wait for next week when I go back to work at the school cafeteria to feed my little ones.