Your Personality on the Page- Day 17

We all have anxieties, worries, and fears. What are you scared of? Address one of your worst fears.

Today’s twist: Write this post in a style distinct from your own.

As a child, I was afraid of many things. I was afraid of the dark, scary stories or movies. There was a time period of my childhood where I felt I was in a dark place.

First story, I was bullied in elementary school from second to sixth grade. My family move to Puerto Rico and the neighbor’s kid didn’t like the new kid. As soon I begin school, the name calling and the pushing will start.  I didn’t have any confidence.

Second story, I was abused by our neighbor this horrible man that I call “the monster”. He lives next door with his family. He and his wife becomes my parent’s friend and they have six children. I don’t remember exactly when the abuse starts. I only know how afraid I was of him.

My mother only knew about the bullying and she will try to help me in some many ways; however it took me four years to put an end to the situation. It was the most difficult time in my life and keeping the secret it was the worse.

To this day, my family still doesn’t know. That family moves to another town and he passed away a few years later.

My mother died not knowing about what happen to me. I didn’t want her to suffer. She was very sick. My dad who is 78 and I can’t do this to him either. I don’t want him to feel guilty and I don’t want to bring any shame into my family.

How I’m doing today? Once a while, the nightmares come back and the depression. I pray to be strong and to have the strength to keep going forward.

This is my journey to the new me, however to get there I have to start to forgive the people who hurt me. That’s the hard part of this journey, because I still can’t forgive all of them. I want my fear of the nightmares to be gone.

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