This Monday brings a huge Thank you to all those who served and are still serving our country. So that I can walk out of my door and be free to go where I want, when I want, and to do so much more! Happy Veteran’s day to my husband , my brother, my uncle, and all veterans. Thank you, thank you, and thank you for being brave and for your service. My hugs and love to all of you!
Halloween is over and I have a neighbor who it’s decorating for Christmas. I’m looking from my window and I noticed that last night we had a little snow on the ground. It looks and feels like the holiday spirit is here.
I told my husband to let’s start decorating for Christmas. He looks at me like are you nuts? Usually, I decorate the house after Thanksgiving, but with the feeling that time flies so fast, I will like to have the house all decorated. It makes me feel wonderful.
Maybe I’m nuts, however if I have it all done a little earlier, I can enjoy how pretty the house gets. I love sitting in the night in my chair and looking at the villages and the tree. Do you think this makes sense? Maybe not. However, the idea of how close we are from the holidays it’s making myself nuts. No doubt I love the holiday season.
What have you done? I ask my little princess. She begins to smile and hide her hands. Please don’t tell me you did it again. She keeps hiding her hands. Her smile is so cute.
I’m thinking when she’s going to learn the markers are not to use it on herself. I’m glad the markers are washable. I’m getting her ready for a shower and another change of clothes. She doesn’t understand her mommy and daddy don’t like the idea of her painting herself. Her skin is very sensitive and she suffers from eczema. I smile and kiss her.
Oh, I took pictures of course.
After I came home on Friday from work, I’ve been depressed. The weekend has been hard and yesterday was one of the worst days I’ve in a long time. When I’m depressed, I cry all the time, I get sensitive, and angry at the same time. The mixed feelings make my head spin, nausea it, and sick all day. I also turn into this mean and awful person. I don’t like it at all.
I took my Med’s and I’m beginning to cool down. My mind and brain feels heavy and tired with all these negative thoughts. Another thing I’m always overthinking, especially when I supposed to be sleeping. My brain stays awake, he keeps thinking what’s next. It’s a strange feeling.
It looks this is the time of the year when I get depressed more often. It began last week with my mom’s 33 years of passing. Also, in a few weeks it will be my dad’s birthday and of course in November it will be two years he passed away. It’s hard to control the mixed feelings, it makes me feel guilty and worse. I don’t know what else I can do except to keep taking my Med’s and pray that I don’t hurt myself.
Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “weigh/way/whey.” Use one, use ’me all, bonus points if you do that last thing. Enjoy!
I went for a checkout at the doctor’s office when the nurse took my weigh it looks, I can’t lose those extra pounds. No matter how much healthier I eat or drink extra water, my weigh doesn’t drop down. The Dr. wants to check my thyroids meanwhile I’ve to stay with my healthy eating habits and hopefully wait for those extra pounds to disappear. It’s a way for hope.
I’ve another tough week at work we are feeding more students this year. The school is getting crowded and with all the cooking and lifting my knees are giving up. They are bothering me for a while. A way to admit I’m getting old.
On this rainy day, I’ve to make a few errands and a little snoop at the flea market I can’t resist that.
I begin a journal in April. Having been depressed all the time I was missing appointments, forgetting to take my medicines, birthdays, and I was getting disorganized. My daughter gave me a Faith planner and I didn’t know what to expect. I decide to check on the internet and I found the bullet journal. I check a few sites and I was amazed by the creativity some people were put on it. You can track anything you want and decorated the way you like it. Of course, all the drawings weren’t necessary, however it makes the journal looks beautiful. I decide to make one.
The first two months I was tracking too many projects and I was overwhelmed. I want my journal to look like the ones I was seeing on the website. My first mistake I can’t draw therefore my journal wasn’t looking as beautiful as the one I was watching on the internet. I became more frustrated with it and I ended throwing the journal. I’ve to get a new one. Second mistake I was spending too much time overthinking and for that reason nothing was getting done. The depression was getting worse. My third mistake I was tracking too many projects and I wasn’t getting anywhere. I want to quit the journal, however I’m not a quitter.
I decide to give it another try, but this time in a different direction. I’ve to make this journal work for me. During the summer my journal was all about my vacation time with my grandkids. I track the places we visit, my mood tracker was pretty good, and I took all my medicines on time.
The month of August I made a few changes. I was tracking my eating habits and my appointments. Now I’m back to work and I want to incorporate a few things from work like my meetings and ordering. I don’t want to get overwhelmed, but I don’t want to forget those little things. In the future I can add some blogging ideas and with the holidays approaching a shopping list.
A lesson learned I don’t need to compete with other journals. My journal must accomplish my needs and keep me organized.