It’s the last day of 2017. Every year I make a list of goals for the New Year’s. Looking back, I’ve accomplished the majority of them except for making changes on my blog. I begin my first resolution of the year watching and cutting sugars, meaning I’ve lost 30 pounds. I did a lot of walking until the cold weather begun. I accomplished my reading challenge in Goodreads with a goal of 60 and I read 87. I also made a few trips that what’s great, we remodel a few things in my home also great, and a lot of family time. During this summer, I spend time with my grandkids going to the park, the lake, the fair, birthdays, movies, you name it. I’m blessed having my two granddaughters moving in for the school year. Next summer they would be going back to Arizona with my daughter. Finally, she’s graduating and getting a full-time job, her dream job. However, the last two months not so great. In November 12, I lost my father and December 26, my sweet dog Taina.
Don’t take me wrong, I’ve a nice Christmas until the following day. Since then I’ve been depressed also sick with the flu. My mind feels all over the place with no purpose in life.I know in my heart, I’ve a purpose, but I need to find it. I’ve been blessed with a beautiful family, an amazing job, and good friends who are there when you not expected. My goals for 2018 would be at a different level. I want to challenge myself and find my purpose.
My goals for 2018:
1- I’m going back to my church. I need to take care of myself spiritually.
2- I want to reread and study the bible.
3- Be a better person and not judge so quickly.
4- I want to do some volunteering work.
5- I want to participate in a soup kitchen. A friend of mine has been doing it for years.
6- Our principal in our school has a reading program. This will be good for me so I’m signing in.
7- Keep my mind and body healthy. As soon the weather begins to change I’m going back for my walk, meanwhile keep watching what I eat.
8- I’ll be signing for another Goodreads reading challenge. Maybe not reading as many books like before, but reading makes me feel relaxed.
9- I want to do something special with my husband for our 35th anniversary.
10- Spend time with my family and create memories.
Daily Post: Finally
I put aside my sadness and my Christmas wasn’t too bad. I’ve a gathering with my family on Christmas Eve. We ate a lot, drink wine, laugh, and tell stories. My father was in our minds and I noticed a little bit of tears coming from my younger sister. We have a wonderful time and we cherish some memories.
On Christmas day, only my older son with my grandson came for Christmas. We spend the day playing games, watching movies, and eating. My grandkids have fun. My other two kids, my youngest went with his fiancé and baby to see her family in Minnesota. My daughter stays in Arizona by herself, she can’t get out of work. We got to talk on the phone and she got to talk to the girls who were missing her. It was a great day.
However, one day after Christmas I lost my beloved dog. She was 10 years old and my companion. On Christmas day she looks happy and she was playing with her new toys. However, it looks she was catching a cold because she spends part of the afternoon sneezing. By then she went into my bedroom where she has her little bed and lay down. She didn’t eat and didn’t want to go outside. Before I went to bed, I give her a hug and clean her eyes. My husband called her in the morning to take her outside and he noticed she was gone. Everyone its devastated she was our spoiled precious dog. Our other dog looks sad and he goes into my room looking for her. He comes out with his head down and lay next to me. It’s kind like comforting us, especially the girls.
We cremated her and when spring comes she will be buried close to my flower garden. That was her favorite place. I confess, this holiday season has been awful. I lost my father and my dog. I feel empty, depressed, and a sadness its keeping me awake all night. I’m trying to control myself, however I can’t stop crying. I hope tomorrow I feel better.
Daily Post: Confess
This is the moment to be grateful for family, friends, and strangers. Yes, strangers who have shown me in the last month kindness and words of comfort.
Just this afternoon I received a phone call from Horn of Plenty Food and Toy Drive. The owner of this group it’s also the owner of a Christian radio station. It’s a nonprofit and they have been helping the community for the past 25 years. When they call me, it was to verify I will be home. They were going to deliver a food basket. I thought I will be getting a fruit or a cheese tray. To my surprise it was an entire Christmas meal. It’s approximately $60.00 dollar on groceries including a frozen turkey, milk, and eggs. I was in disbelief since I realized they are other families who are in need. They need this kind of help. These two gentlemen were kind and generous. I begin to cry.
This act of kindness has open my eyes. No matter how bad it looks out there in our country or in the entire world we still have great people.
I will be donating the groceries to the church pantry. I feel is the right thing to do. Like I mentioned before, there are other families who can benefit from this basket. I am grateful to the person who wrote my name and give it to this organization. This act of kindness has been a blessing send by God. It makes me realize I can do more for my community and for others.
Daily Post: Bliss
It’s early Saturday morning and everyone its sleeping. The house is quiet and I’m having my cup of coffee. Today, I’m finishing my Christmas shopping. It looks my Saturday would be a busy one. I’m taking advantage of the silence in a few hours they all be up and I will be running after them. I love it when I can take time for myself. Of course, I can have a plan for the day, however not always goes as I planned it.
I love to take the time for my daily prayers and relax for a little bit until everyone wakes up. Since my dad passed, I’ve been feeling a little lost.
For now, I’m enjoying my cup of coffee in the dark. I really need this after a tough week. My husband and the girls have been sick and it’s time for me to take a little break.
Daily Post: Silent
I’m done decorating the house except for my dad’s bedroom. It’s hard to be in his bedroom looking at his belonging also I can smell him. On Friday, my sibling came to the house for his monthly rosary. I can’t believe it’s been a month since he passed. I’m trying to be strong for my family, especially for my grandkids.
Last night, we took the grandkids to the Christmas lightning at the park. They have a Christmas display from different small business around the park and the drive become a fun one. The Christmas lights and the music it makes you feel right into the season. Then we ride around the town to check the decorations and we end the night with a cup of hot cocoa cover in marshmallows.
In two weeks Christmas will be here and for most of the people the holiday season will be over. I’m trying to hide my sadness and my sorrow all for the joy of my family. They deserved a happy Christmas.
I realized our life can be gone in a second for that reason lets the jolly Christmas be in our heart. Let’s enjoy every minute with our love ones. You never know it could be the last one.
Daily Post: Jolly
My Christmas tree it’s done. I was debating if I should decorate this year or not. It’s not even be three weeks since my dad passed away and I’m not ready for celebration. My grandkids had been asking for the decoration and they want to cheer me up. Every year I decorated my home in honor of my mother. Both of my parents love Christmas especially the family gathering.
I think it’s too soon, however the spark on my grandkids eyes brings a little of happiness in my heart. I have work to do with finishing the house. My villages and nutcrackers are next on my list.
A few minutes before he has the heart attack we were talking about decorating his bedroom. Now, his room is close and I don’t know if I can grant his wish.
Daily Post: Sparkle